Though its bright and sunny outside my window this Saturday afternoon, I am feeling rather gloomy here in my bedroom, typing this post on my bed, yet to take my morning bath...
The situation at work that I am facing now did affect my well being. Also, theres the matter of heart that I am strongly controlling so as to avoid the bursting of these great eye dam of mine! Sigh.
Since I was attending a course outside office for the past two days, I managed to keep myself occupied. What more when this Occupational First Aid and CPR course needs you to sit for practical and written test, attention and focus is much needed. Thus, other matters diminished in the thin air. But now... I am at home and the solitude in my room made this 'o so suck up feelings' surface without my invitation. Sigh again.
I’ll never let you see
The way my broken heart is hurting in me
I’ve got my pride and I know how to hide
All my sorrow and pain
I’ll do my crying in the rain
... ... ... ... ...
Raindrops falling from heaven
Could never take away my misery
... I pray for stormy weather
To hide these tears I hope you’ll never see
Someday when my crying is done
I’m gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun
I may be a fool but till then, you never see me complain
I’ll do my crying in the rain
O' my... thank God to this A-ha Song... kind of keeping me going strong... and I promise I will.
This coming Monday, I am going to start anew. Of how I do and handle things. I will be the old me when I was the Head of Department in my previous organisation. Full of zest, determination and courageous. Some people here might not really know me. Well now that the knife is in my hand, I will have the power to slice my own cucumber and garnish whatever food to be served nicely! Insyaallah and with God willing of course.
Gotta go out to my hairdresser for a new hairdo, get my shoulder massaged, have my own home spa treatment later and am ready to take charge next week. Wish me luck dear readers...
Kalambicara is stopping now to go to the saloon... till then... cheers and no more tears!
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Today, Last Year.
On this same date (22 January) last year (2007)… I stepped in this organization as the Corporate Communications Consultant… for a contract of service for one year. (22 January 2007 – 22 January 2008)
It’s a mixed feelings actually…
Prior to accepting the offer, I was contemplating. Should I accept or not? Earlier, the application was for a Corporate Communications Manager and a permanent position.
I was keeping mumb about the offer for a fortnight. Neither did I confirm the acceptance to their HR or replied to the email from one member of the senior management.
I was actually confused. But, I need the job then. After been doing freelancing for almost half a year… I need something secured. Freelancing is good. I truly enjoyed my freedom… but the income, of course, is not fixed. I was merely doing translation, writings and lecturing on part time basis.
After much thought, I accepted the post. And today, 22 January 2008, the contract expires.
And today also, I received an offer letter from the same organisation for the position of the Head of the Knowledge Resource Centre (KRC). This new position will be effective tomorrow, 23 January 2008.
Am I happy? Again... a mixed feelings. I was contemplating... like before. The offer was of course lesser than when I was the Consultant. That is normal, but not so much reduction... as this, eh? But of course theres the perks, and butterflies and bees and all...but still....hmmm. In a way, I felt as though all these are insulting my intelligence. But, again... since that is the only offer that I have at the moment, and I need the income... I have not much choice but to accept and thankful that I still have a job and an income. Sigh.
I like the nature of KRC. The thought of dealing with books and documents, physical and online truly excites me. I will be accountable for the whole operations of KRC and ensuring that KRC is well publicised and promoted nationwide, as the virtual and physical reference centre, especially on information security and ICT in general.
It will also gives me a chance to do research in the course of my interest in pursuing my Phd this May. Insyaallah.
I will take this challenge with pride and will try my best, together with my new team, to bring the KRC to greater heights.
I am hoping that you will all support me as well... and I need that very much. May Allah bless my team and I.
Btw...Happy Thaipusam and Happy Holiday to all. I really need a good rest tomorrow as then on I will be facing a new challenge and looking forward to it with full enthusiasm.
Kalambicara is signing off... to really rest.
It’s a mixed feelings actually…
Prior to accepting the offer, I was contemplating. Should I accept or not? Earlier, the application was for a Corporate Communications Manager and a permanent position.
I was keeping mumb about the offer for a fortnight. Neither did I confirm the acceptance to their HR or replied to the email from one member of the senior management.
I was actually confused. But, I need the job then. After been doing freelancing for almost half a year… I need something secured. Freelancing is good. I truly enjoyed my freedom… but the income, of course, is not fixed. I was merely doing translation, writings and lecturing on part time basis.
After much thought, I accepted the post. And today, 22 January 2008, the contract expires.
And today also, I received an offer letter from the same organisation for the position of the Head of the Knowledge Resource Centre (KRC). This new position will be effective tomorrow, 23 January 2008.
Am I happy? Again... a mixed feelings. I was contemplating... like before. The offer was of course lesser than when I was the Consultant. That is normal, but not so much reduction... as this, eh? But of course theres the perks, and butterflies and bees and all...but still....hmmm. In a way, I felt as though all these are insulting my intelligence. But, again... since that is the only offer that I have at the moment, and I need the income... I have not much choice but to accept and thankful that I still have a job and an income. Sigh.
I like the nature of KRC. The thought of dealing with books and documents, physical and online truly excites me. I will be accountable for the whole operations of KRC and ensuring that KRC is well publicised and promoted nationwide, as the virtual and physical reference centre, especially on information security and ICT in general.
It will also gives me a chance to do research in the course of my interest in pursuing my Phd this May. Insyaallah.
I will take this challenge with pride and will try my best, together with my new team, to bring the KRC to greater heights.
I am hoping that you will all support me as well... and I need that very much. May Allah bless my team and I.
Btw...Happy Thaipusam and Happy Holiday to all. I really need a good rest tomorrow as then on I will be facing a new challenge and looking forward to it with full enthusiasm.
Kalambicara is signing off... to really rest.
Friday, January 11, 2008
Bye 2007...Hi 2008
I know I know... Many are commenting me for not updating my blog for quite some time now. There's no point of me giving reasons... It all started off due to my very busy and tight schedule in the month of December 07 and even up till now. But after much ado, I guess I have to stop procrastinating despite the reality of having piles of tasks to be accomplished. Work can never finished. Actually some were the results of my own interest... sendiri cari ...like doing part time lecturing at a university three times a week after work, some writings for publication...etc
Ok... am taking this opportunity to wish all the ardent fans of my blog, Selamat Menyambut Tahun Baru 1429 Hijrah and guess its still not late for me to wish all, Happy New Year 2008. May this year be the year for all of us ... to achieve our dreams and to fulfill all the resolutions made. May Allah swt bless us all. Amin.
Below is the excerpt that I always cherish when new year comes... to share with all of you. I considered this message as healthy food for thought. Btw George Carlin is a well known American Standup Comedian who speaks much on human behaviour, everyday life, the American culture, etc. Hopefully it will trigger some action ... to do or not to do... One thing I know for sure is 'not to take things for granted.' Well, happy reading...
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...
Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
Remember; say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember; to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
Remember; to say "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
Remember; to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
Sincerely,
A New Year Message From George Carlin
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.
We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.
We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years.
We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.
We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...
Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.
Remember; say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.
Remember; to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.
Remember; to say "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
Remember; to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
Sincerely,
George Carlin
With this... Kalambicara is signing off and feeling contented now that this blog is updated ...at least for today.
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